I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I’d thought it’d be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing could save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

(On my own!)

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

I tried so hard to change but i need more time. Things aren't easy. Its easier said than done. Support is what i need. Family and friends are all around me giving support but i can never run away from problems. Each problems give me strength to carry on. Life is so hard these days. All those times i made u down. All the trust that was given is now gone. But still you shower me with your love and happiness. Without you i'll be lost. The nights and days wouldn't be the same without you. If only i never made that stupid mistake, i would never know how you love me so much. After the things i've done to you and all can say is that I'm sorry but it is so hard to say it. All these things that i've done and look at what i've become. You mean so much to me. If I could start again, I would throw it all away to the shadows of regrets and you would have the best of me. I know that I can't take back all of the mistakes but I will try. Although it's not easy, I know you believe me cause I would not lie. Just give me a chance to make things right. I'll assure you that things are not going to be the same. I'll not let the black history to repeat itself. Just give me a chance.

Went to study at Plaza with Ameer and Marissa. Studied, talked and as usual joke around. Bought pearly bandung at mr bean. Wah $2 gone. T.T Well met up with Sabrina and Adha at about 5.30pm then went to Sabrina's house and that is when the party begins. Had to wear make up, lipstick and eye lashes. Don't what is wrong with. Fell like I'm becoming a gay. This few weeks, sat like one, walk like one and my hand can't control. Well back to the party. My face changed from a man to a gay and Marissa said i look beautiful. OMG!!! Adha and Ameer too had to the same thing. Took some pictures and i was so embarrassed of myself. tried washing those things from my face but can'!!! WAH!! After that went home and was so tired. I won't become a gay man. NEVER!! haha okay that's all folks, see ya!

Stayed at home with nothing to do. Today suppose to go out with the Famillia but i can't cause today i have religious class. So stayed at home. Surf the net and did nothing much. Listen to musics in youtube. All the 80's rock bands. Cool huh? Well nothing much to post today. If i continue on further, you could hear all my stupid remarks about today hahaha. Well that's all folks nights!!